Kasuga, you're slowing down.
I'm getting tired.
Hey...
What do you think is beyond the hill?
Huh?
That's what I've been wondering my whole life.
I kept wondering whether the world just ends there.
Whether beyond the edge of the world lay only darkness, driving you mad.
I think I know what you mean.
There's nothing in this town.
There's nothing, and the people are boring.
All we have is rust, gambling parlors, and weeds.
I'll break down if I stay here.
I have to run away.
Somewhere far away.
I've wanted to go traveling my whole life.
What? Traveling?
Were you even listening to me, you piece of shit?
Just keep going like this.
On and on, forever.
Nanako?
Aren't you hungry?
Sorry.
Oh!
Can I be excused?
I need to make a phone call.
Sure.
Nakamura speaking.
Hello.
I'm Saeki, from Sawa's class.
Um...
Is Sawa at home?
Sorry.
She's not back yet.
I wonder where she is.
Saeki, was it?
Are you her friend?
I guess she has friends too, huh?
Thank you! Goodbye!
Are you okay?
Is everything all right?
I'm going to go buy some stationery.
I'm out of notebooks.
I'll be right back.
Aku no Hana
episode ten (thirteen total)
You're really not making any progress, Kasuga.
But...
This is pathetic.
You really are a dumbass.
I've been doing all the work here!
It's raining!
Let's take shelter over there!
The town looks so small from here.
I guess my dad knows by now.
Let me understand you!
I'm gonna be waiting...
I'm gonna be waiting!
Got any money, Kasuga?
No.
You're useless.
What was I supposed to do?
I had no idea this'd happen!
What?
Nothing.
I'm sick of this.
Let's go home.
Wh-What?!
I'm kidding.
I can't wait to see what's beyond the hill.
Let's go once the rain lets up.
Okay.
I dunno.
What are you doing out so late?
Sorry!
Sorry, I'm closing up.
Have you seen a middle school student?
I mean,
a boy and a girl.
Have you seen them?
Sure have.
They passed by on a bicycle about an hour ago.
I remember 'cause not many pass by on a bicycle here.
Really?
Where'd they go? Where?
That way.
But that road goes into the mountains.
Why?
Down there, among the light, all the other people can lead their ordinary lives.
Why are we up here?
Do you really have to ask?
Because we're deviants.
I see.
Being a deviant isn't so bad, I guess.
I feel pretty good right now.
Kasuga!
This isn't fair!
Running away isn't fair!
Thank you, Nakamura.
Thank you for dragging me along.
The rain just won't let up.
All right.
Wanna sleep here?
Go to sleep, Kasuga.
We still have a long way to go.
The rain sounds like it's drowning our town in shit.
Nakamura...
Saeki?
Kasuga...
Sorry...
I drove you to a wall, didn't I?
I'm sorry...
Saeki...
Why?
Why?!
This book...
I'm sorry it's all wet.
I've read it so many times.
It's so hard...
I don't understand it...
I don't understand why you like it.
Tell me.
What do you like about this book?
Kasuga...
What's going on inside you?
Please...
Tell me...
Don't run away...
We're boyfriend and girlfriend...
Why do you run to her?
I'm going to the beyond.
I'm going to the beyond, and Kasuga is coming with me.
The beyond?
What do you mean, the beyond?
Kasuga...
No...
I...
Do you love her?
N-No!
Do you want to know that badly what goes on inside him?
Let me tell you, then.
Nakamura?
I know everything he's done since he stole your gym clothes.
What do you think he wore underneath when he was confessing to you?
Nakamura!
Get naked!
Get naked, damn it!
Stop!
He got a boner from sniffing your gym clothes and rubbing them against his skin.
And he was wearing them on your stupid fucking date, and when you got that retarded confession!
See?
He's always wearing your gym clothes in his heart.
They stick to his body behind the walls that hide his true self.
He's not even putting up a real fight here.
He's a deviant, well and true.
I don't care.
If he did that because he loved me,
then I am happy.
I don't think it makes him a deviant.
But...
At least tell me!
I'll accept you!
If there's a side of you that only Nakamura knows,
then tell me!
Let's go home together.
I'm sorry, Saeki.
I'm sorry.
Forget it, Kasuga.
You're starting to bore me.
Nakamura...
Just stay in this stupid town and waste away.
Kasuga...
Na... Nakamura!
Kasuga!
What?
Nakamura...
Why?!
Why are you running after her?!
Why?!
Am I not enough?
Am I really not enough?
I guess you do love her.
No...
I didn't mean to run after her.
You don't understand...
This is pathetic.
Fucking pathetic.
What is?
What's pathetic?!
You have no idea what it's been like for me!
Don't laugh!
Don't laugh, damn it!
I was so happy...
Kasuga made me sparkle!
Saeki...
And yet...
Why do I...
Kasuga...
Kasuga!
Decide. Hurry up.
Will you come with me?
Will you go back?
Don't fuck with my expectations.
I'm...
I'm empty inside.
I read The Flowers of Evil.
I read Shibusawa Tatsuhiko and Breton.
I read Hagiwara Sakutarou and Bataille.
But so what?
I figured I was different.
I figured I was different from all those boring people.
But am I?
I don't really understand Baudelaire or The Flowers of Evil.
I just liked to imagine myself reading it.
I pretended not to know...
what I was really like.
I pretended I wasn't ordinary.
I'm...
empty inside.
Saeki...
I had a crush on you for so long.
I worshipped you as my muse, my angel.
I wanted you to be angelic.
I never actually planned on facing a Saeki made of flesh and blood.
It scares me.
I can't be normal.
I can't love like a normal human being.
But I'm not a deviant!
I'm not the kind of person you want me to be, Nakamura.
There's nothing to lay bare.
There's nothing.
I'm a piece of shit!
I'm the worst piece of shit of all!
I can't choose one of you!
I don't have the right to!
Fine.
Forget it.
Are you Saeki Nanako?
You were reported missing by your parents.
We found her.
Yes, she's not hurt.
Come on into the car, everyone.
You can explain this at the police station.
Hey!
Wait!
Hey!
Let me go!
You piece of shit! Let me go!
I can't run away.
Say something! Come on!
I won't forget it.
Thank you for everything.
You liar.
Let's break up.
I trusted you.
Nakamura.
Nakamura!
Shall I rotoscope you as well?
Oshimi Shuzou